Wow, it's been a year since I wrote here.

Crazy.

And if I call you B, will you answer? If you don't, I'm almost more okay with that. Then I can leave a guarded message, one which hopefully does not reveal how happy I was that you called. If I have to talk to you, my feelings may accidentally show through. I don't want that, you don't want that, the universe would fucking think it's hilarious and laugh at me, because it's been playing tricks on me for the past month...year...life.

Here goes nothing.