Yeah, it's been awhile, not much to say. Been bogged down with classes and people and such. A friend's getting married...I could've had that once...the showers, the attention, the gifts. I nearly cried. I didn't think it would be so hard to do this, to be a bridesmaid. I just have to have hope that yes, one day I will get married. Of course, not to any of the boys I meet in bars, but to someone, somewhere. And I have be strong and not bemoan the fact that I don't have a boyfriend. I gave it up for my own very good reasons (someone very dear to me really and completely understands now why I did it...I feel validated now that at least one person understands...). Such is life, my friends.

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Maybe I'm Not So Wrong After All

This is an article taken from MSN's website about fathers in alternative families (single dads, gay dads, etc.). It's nice to know that fathers can have the same worries as mothers and completely reinforces my belief that marriage that includes children should be teamwork and not a "mom says this/dad says this" kind of thing. I want to get married. So I look for a guy that has qualities that I like...I look for a man that I can get along with well...I look for a guy for whom marrage (and fatherhood) is a team effort. And I'm glad that there's something out there that says men can be on the same page as women when it comes to raising children. I also don't want to be a traditional stay-at-home mom. If I'm out at work, and my husband is watching the kids, I certainly would like to know that we're on the same page. For all the talk there was about boys needing their dads (or males that they can communicate with), only in the past few years are people starting to notice that girls need their daddies too. I am lucky to have grown up in a two parent home and am especially glad that I have my dad. After all, who the hell else is going to teach me how to fix flats, change spark plugs, or how to fix a leaky toilet? Certainly not my mother. My mother just wants it to work. My dad knows how to fix it. Dads truly are a wonderful thing.

Some people go out and have fun with other lonely people who are out to have fun. A distraction of a few hours. Me, I got so tired of people I went drinking alone and had the time of my life with myself. I went a-dancing. And there was no one there with me who was insecure about themselves to the point where they would drag me down with them or make me feel guilty about dancing. I loved it. That, my friends, is heaven. Never be afraid to do something by yourself.