For once, I would like to be important enough in someone's life that they think of me first. That I don't have to put up with the endless waiting and stupid "oh, I'm sorry" bullshit that seems to occur with stunning regularity. For once, I want someone to stop paying lip service to me and actually demonstrate that I am, in fact, important.
Perhaps my standards are too high. I hate lowering them, because that way lies madness, and I know it does, because that's a well-worn path and I'm damn tired of taking it. I think I'm just going to have to adjust my expectations and live with the fact that nothing is ever serious and I'll just be doomed to 3 year relationships or however long it takes for me to give up on it, when I get tired of dealing with bullshit.
It hurts, but you know, I guess I have to. I probably shouldn't have jumped off that bridge again. Shame on me for being that much of a fool.
