Sometimes I wonder about myself.

Because I am human, I have this slavish tendency to want attention, yet I don't want attention, because I will always shy away from it. I do know that it's a product of my upbringing, but still, it's very strange and paradoxical.

Life is, however, paradoxical. There's no way around it.

We seek to be individuals, yet we seek out other people who believe exactly as we do. It's the pull of being collectively individualistic. There's never really been anywhere that I fit in, and that sucks.